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The Symphony of Ice and Fire

               ----Pour Dearest Demon Couple

…….I don’t think I like dark, but I always touched by the sincere miracles in evil world…..

 

You are tall, with muscular silhouette, manly and handsome face, tanned skin that matched twinkling silver hair. Definitely, those strong comparisons will impress all creatures. Your pale blue eyes are chilled. Generally, you are colorless.

 

You are slim, with enchanting and stunning appearance, delicate and beautiful face, pale and fair skin that decorated by silken copper golden hair, which make all the people felt shamed, jealous or admiring. Your slanted emerald eyes that framed by long and curly eyelashes are clear and charming. You are colorful.

 

  You are the eldest of the four generals that you behaviour and power indicate you are the leader. Cool, indifferent, incommunicative, these personalities enable you to be a rational, practical, calm and systematic warrior. You never offend your queen. Your languages show your obedience and respect.

 

You are the youngest of the four generals that your actions suggest you are a childish lucifer. Cruel, disobedient, retaliative but sincere and adorable, your characters lead you to be an emotional, impulsive, brave and devoted commander. Your languages fill with defiance, causticity and arrogance that cost your life in the end.

 

You two are totally different like two parallel that never meet each other.

On the other hand, you two have a lot in common that you have to live in the world filling with evil, cheat and scars. You could never wildly wish the twilight because you regarded each other as bright lamp.

 

You hide all your wounds and feelings in the bottom of your heart. You always make you look strong, calm and emotionless. You are ice, but ice will be melt by the fire.

 

You express your happiness, your sadness and your anger in the pretty face. You can pout, bite your fingernails, and water your eyes like a crybaby. Your smile, your fury make you a normal human. You are fire melted the ice.

 

This is the miracle of the darkness, the sunshine of the dungeon. Two lonely souls have produced florid sparkles.

 

You used this way to express your love: stroke, rose, hug and a warm gaze, because you are the teacher, elder brother, ‘bonne’ or ‘husband’…In short, you are senior.

 

You used this way to deliver your love: you mentally swore you want to do anything for him; you protected him in your slim body; you show your last smile to comfort his anxious. You are the student; you are the junior one that needs love and be loved.

 

Those poor people who sold their souls to the demon, without any freedom, love and life are wandered in the boundaries of death and living. However, the dangerous game has its end, earlier or later.

 

‘forgive me….I failed you…’

‘please promise me…only one…’

‘anything…..’

‘don’t forgive me…..’

……

‘goodbye, my love…’

 

You cuddled your lifeless lover tightly, holding your tears. Only your heart knows: how heavy your true feeling! How deep your love! ‘Oshitaishite Orimashita….’ Resounding in the endless of miss, your heart cannot get any comforts in the night when sakura petals falling. 

 

You poured your last smile for him in the end of your life, using the final strength told him your feeling about him that deeply imbedded in the bottom of your soul. Glittering and translucent tears slide your pale but peaceful cheeks, your slender hands fell lifelessly. 16 years life is enough, you are a teenager who combined angel and demon. 

 

In the darkness, you are dancing solely at this hard stage.

 

You staring at the memento that only he left to you, without more words, just called his name silently. You found he is your miracle, but why you don’t notice that before. Love is a painful memory…..Why always knew its value just after you lost it! You cannot find warm dawn in the world that your cold appearance just a mask of your fragile heart. 

 

‘…..Lead me there where your soul rests….’

The reflection of sex education between adults and pupils.

         A case study in America

In common sense, the western countries are much more open and free than traditional Asian countries.

 

I went to Leicester to meet my good friend during the Easter recess. I watched two films: one is American Pie; the other (I cannot remember the specific name of this show) combined a lot of episodes of multiple movies and distorted some episodes in a funny way. Don’t laugh at me please because I am absolutely not a crazy movie nut; obviously, I cannot follow the newest entertainment main stream.

 

Both two movies are very popular in the American society that could only provide for adults. It cannot shock me although what contains the great numbers of sexual scenes and ‘nuisance’ views. It is the exactly impression of American society in my point of view that majority young people are interested in sex probable due to their vanity and hormones. Nevertheless, I cannot deny that those fairly exaggerated scenes are really made me sweats dropped: I cannot believed that a person can chat with others shamelessly when he making love with his girlfriend; I cannot believed that two groups of people have a competition about using short time to unfasten more their female classmates’ bras etc. Somehow I personal think the Chinese entertainment cannot show the types of movies to the public with any hesitation. On the other hand, it has got widely acceptance from Americans; the probable reason is Americans identified this movie as a normal way of sex education that meet the needs of grown people. Moreover, there are many lovemaking scenes in almost Hollywood movies such as TITANIC, not mention the marginal sex behaviours: kiss, hug and stroke etc.  

 

In contrast, the Americans prevented children from unhealthy information strictly.

 

It is astonished me deeply, for example, the well-known Japanese cartoon series—Sailor Moon. A take-breathing pretty boy-Z who is a villain in the first season of this cartoon has a gay relationship with his supervisor-K. The toei amination who exaggerated the invisible vague relationship between the ‘brothers’ in original manga could not only meet amine-makers ‘hentai’ interests but also built a stable foundation for the further development of the BL-involved cartoons among the teenagers in Japan. Additionally, their ‘creative’ design has attractive more children’s eyeballs. All in all, it is not permitted to take BL fictions into screen in American’s point of view, furthermore, the majority audiences of ‘Sailor Moon’ are young children who could easily be influenced by normal sex relationship, not mention the gays’ love.

 

Actually, Americans are very sensible to homosexual. An American teacher who taught in New Oriental English Center told us: the male will be identified as a gay if he pays more attention to his cloth; crosses his legs or hug other guys’ shoulders etc. Definitely, the beauty-Z who has many gay’s behaviours such as crosses his legs, plays with his hairs and flies-kiss to a school boy had offended the ‘taboos’ of American’s teenagers sex education. Fortunately, based on the boy’s charming appearance that surpass majority women’s, Americans found a solution of this problem by using a woman voice character for this male role. Subsequently, a beautiful evil girl was ‘born’ with a tall figure, flat chest, thin waist, narrow hip and slender legs. Therefore,‘Sailor Moon’ audience could regarded KZ as a real couple.

 

Nevertheless, Americans felt far not enough for their first change. The next step is cut the marginal sex behaviour episodes of this couple as possible as they can. It is clearly see the American anime makers’ huge efforts towards the teenager. In particular, there are not any deleted episodes of the whole story and using male as this role’s voice character in China

 

In fact, with the rapid development of internet, the Americans’ lie has been revealed. Currently, majority children who come from English-speaking countries have watched the Japanese counterpart of Sailor Moon. The Mr. Nanba’s brilliant and enchanting male voice enable young westerns to believe ‘She is a he’. Surprisingly, those young foreigners can accept their BL relationship, and show more affection than Chinese teenagers….. From this perspective, I found western society has more tolerance for homosexual and less discrimination.

 

American is such a country that they treat grown people and un-grown people totally different. Cartoons, as an important way of recreational education for children, are much cleaner than that of in Japan. They will eliminate every potential unhealthy factor such as homosexual, fornication and violence in order to assure a pure atmosphere for young people’s growth. But, the development of technological information has caused the globalization of entertainment, when you find long English KZ boy’s love story, you will recognize that the fireproofing-wall are fragile that built by American amine makers.  

 

Notes: I wrote in English just because I want to practice written English.

          This is the Chinese counterpart link: http://user.qzone.qq.com/605866805/blog/1211203345

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

13日的考试让我的黑色心情加剧,但是任务还是一个接一个.16号要交一个3000字的Reflective Journal.而我只在3月份的时候写完其中的两篇( 1000字左右).所以我必须在两天之内写完剩下的2000字,对于这个工程我没有把握.在学期之初,我觉得我只能每天写300字,后来在情况紧急的情况下,可以写到500字.一周前要交交通论文的时候,我破纪录地在一天之内写了800字.而昨天我通宵达旦,一共挤出了1500多字,包括3个Journal的Entry和序言及鸣谢部分.

人的极限是可以挑战的,不是吗,对于我来说,写作是件很困难的事,用中文写都觉得无话可说,用英语写的困难就更大了,单词,句式,语法,参考资料.一切都像噩梦一样给我带来了长时间的痛苦.

早上洗了澡,然后强打精神,决定去图书馆的IT room把最后一点赶完。中午11：30的时候，我终于把它们搞定。在向我们院楼走的时候，碰上了我班的日本女孩。相信如果时间长的话，我们一定会成为好朋友。她说她6月出要回日本了。我觉得时间的快都来不及结交更多的国际朋友，于是我们互相留了E-mail。

再提交了这个Journal 以后，我让那里的负责人把一个月以前的法律论文的结果给我。我已经做好了挂的准备，我对自己的学习很没信心，即使我用了几乎整个的复活节假期来写。。。但是令我意外的是：我居然及格了。我相信这个分数仍然很低，所以我不会拿它与班里的其他同学比。但是对于我自己，我看到自己的付出有了回报，我比以前有了进步。这是最令我高兴的。

最后一件事是要找我们的Course Leader。安德鲁是个非常好的老师，他非常有耐心，对待我们总是很和蔼。很喜欢他。他有白色的头发，和很绿很绿的眼睛。我跟他谈我未来的打算。我觉得自己是喜欢英国的，但是我告诉他对于国际学生来说找到体面的工作是件难事。我对自己没有明确的主意，或许我很想学一个纯正的美术专业。当我在Bute公园看到UWIC的美术学生在画画的时候，如果回国的话，我也不知道自己可以干什么。我的专业对于中国来说太先进了，很多理念在中国现阶段是达不到的。。。

 

安德鲁让我去多方面的咨询，然后在把咨询的结果告诉他。然后他认为我的英语说得还是不错的，语速比较快，而且很清楚，还能有比较快的反应。我告诉他那是因为我在英国的时间里，跟本地人交流的时候很多。因为自己孤傲的性格，使得自己不愿去参加一帮中国留学生的队伍。而且班里只有一个中国人，所以在做小组的工程的时候都必须与本地人交流。所以久而久之学会了很多他们的语气。

告别了可爱的安德鲁，我在回家的路上感到了一种久违的轻松和愉快。天气时阴沉沉的，但是我的心中却漾起了阳光。喜欢；真心英雄‘那首歌，不经历风雨，怎能见彩虹。在黑暗的长夜里，一点点小小的成绩都会化作我心中的彩虹。

 I think I can enjoy my leisure time, but I cannot enjoy my academic studying. That's too much. It is 13 May and the dammit environmental law exam will hold in 13:00-15:00. I hate it very much. Those days (after I submitted my transport 4000 words essay) I do nothing about academic studying. I really found I cannot rememeber those boring law information in my heart. OH, shit, I think the EU or the UK law is none of my business. Why I have to study that? That's really unfair. I'm nervous this morning that I felt uncomfortable about my stomach, and went to toliet many times. I realized that I must leave or I will late. The exam place is in  the Talybont Sport Hall where can contain a great number of people.

　　
   I met some of my classmates, Loi, a cute guy, we spatted our hands... Uh? celebration? I don't think anything was value to celebrate. To be honest, I admire those locals that this exam could be much easier for them....at least, they needn't to take a heavy dictionary...The exam paper was already put in the table when I entered the 'hell'. After the examiner blurted 'you can begin'. I look up the shit paper and skimmed those topic. After a few mimutes, I found only the question 1 I can answer, the others are really 'alien'for me. I don't know anything about the environmental law system in the UK or EU. The environmental Protection Act are really 'heaven book' for me. Oh, Amitabha, I dicide do the first question first. I almost used an hour and half to finish this question while only left half an hour to think about the rests. Oh, question 2...I don't know. At least, I definitely I cannot choose the case anaylsis that really a suicidal plan if I did. In fact, I really don't know the reasonable point of the question 2. Waste management in the UK, too bad...... I spend the rubbish time and wait for die.....

　　Stop! Everything was gone. Why I still alive? I should back to my nest and prepare for the piano tutorial in the late afternoon. I don't know what can comfotable me. I don't want to fail any more. I felt crazy about those academic coursework. I cannot enjoy them at all that will made me a doll!!!!That's my fate.